Glutton Detox

I’m not sure there is a lot of difference between a drug detox and a bad food/sedentary life style detox.  I have never been addicted to drugs, but from what I have read and seen, I imagine that it’s similar in that your body goes into a bit of a shock and you feel sick.  Today I have a pressing head ache and my body is also achy.  It doesn’t help that I have cut my coffee from an unprecedented amount to simply two cups.  No wonder it’s hard to stick to the beginning stages of “diet and exercise”.   Who the hell wants this?  It’s hard to see it getting better, but I’ve been here before so I know it will (as I think to myself, “why did I let it get back to this point again?!” *deep breath*)

Today was my first day back in the gym and for a little motivation I made Erick tag along with the lure of Racket ball.  I was really hoping he would fall in love with the gym as I have and want to join with me… but, my husband isn’t that guy.  I really don’t blame him.  Many men need the gym to get themselves feeling manly.  Let’s face it, I’m there to feel more womanly; but my husband doesn’t need the gym when he has an amazing confidence backed by some serious martial arts skills.  Which, by the way, were dialed in yesterday when our neighbor thought someone might have broken into her house and she called Erick to check the place out… let’s just say that was hotter than any muscle man at the gym….  But I digress…

What was I writing about?  Oh yeah, detox… 

Well with the Racket Ball and some running afterward, I think I truly felt REAL hunger for the first time in a long time.  For people reading this that never have struggled with their weight this seems odd, but it’s regrettably true.  So I ate and I ate healthy.  I am not for the body cleansing that has swarmed the market.  I’ve done these… the one where you drink a mix of lemonade, cayenne pepper and honey, to where you juice everything and drink your calories.  I love fresh juice and surprisingly I still love lemonade, but all I’ve come away with these “cleansings” is over eating because I missed eating so much.  All in all I think this journey is about finding what works for you without being extreme, because that never works!

One Year Later

Has it really been a year?  Wow...

Well, as I find myself clawing my way out of a year of hell, I look to the excitement this year promises...

Mountain Shore Craftworks seems to be taking off, in spite of not participate in Holiday Bazaars this past season.  I'm finding my small foot hold in the big, wide world of crafters/artists and even though some of "my" ideas have been hitting the market before I have had a chance to put my stamp on it, I am continuing to grow and hone in on my artistic skills.  I am in complete bliss when working in my art space and because of this, expect to see great things coming out of that little room!

The market, however, is NOT favoring Dream-A-Theme Parties.  I shrug it off, knowing not every idea can make it.  I have done a party here and there, but nothing like I wished which, honestly, is totally okay with me.. for now...

As I said, this year wasn't good and I always seem to let my body be an indicator of that.  Embarrassingly, I am currently at the weight I was shortly after giving birth to Zayah (who is now 6).  It's really not easy for me to write about this because I am very private when it comes to really exposing my true physical self to the world.  But I have learned a valuable lesson this past year and that is a little inspiration goes a long way for people who are searching for a little bit of hope in their lives.

I am not "Biggest Loser" fat, but I could stand to lose 50 pounds.  In 2010 I ran a marathon, and now I can hardly run a quarter mile.  I have found that it's almost "easier" for those who have NEVER been athletic to get there once they grab hold of their motivation.  I struggle with the, "I used to be able to.." thoughts and these really drag me down. 

My continuing inspirational pick-me-ups come from my BFF in California.  She was not a runner.  Her body isn't a typical "runner's body" and here she is going on her, what, 5th(?) half marathon.  She looks better now than she ever has!  She has started a Facebook group called "Kiss My Pace" that has women of all athletic abilities contributing inspiration, hardships, and support.

I have officially signed up for a half marathon in June to jump start me getting my body back to healthy!  Today is day "zero" for me.  This means, I am continuing as I have been, but being extremely mindful of how I feel and really seeing my bad habit triggers.  I should probably post a picture so the visual can be clearer for when I do finally get back to where I want to be, but I can't.... Just know that I can only fit into 2 pairs of my pants and old t-shirts.  I don't sleep well and I am constantly feeling like I am walking through mud.  And no, I don't have the flu, but as long as I continue being this way I am sick...

I really hope that my blog this year can help inspire and support family and friends who are also "sick".  Before I end this post I want to say, celebrate EVERY accomplishment, even if it is as small as taking 5 more steps today than you did yesterday.